Flat Stomach

Everybody yearns to have a beautiful flat stomach.  After my discharge from the hospital, I am getting fat.  No more flat stomach.  My weight is about 72kg now.  The medication is making me obese!  I could not wear most of my clothes and I have to walk around with a big stomach as though I am still pregnant!

Even man also wants to have a flat stomach.  Have you seen man in their late forties with big belly?  They are not nice to look at.  Women have similar problems.  Richard has a little small belly now.  He is quite anxious about it.  He search the internet for solutions -- how to achieve 6 packs.  He told me about Flex Belt, something tied to the abdomen.  The Flex Belt is actually an ab toning device which are clinically proven and FDA approved to tone the muscles.  It is said that if you use the Flex Belt daily, you can see results in just a few weeks time.


The Flex Belt is said to emit electrical pulses which stimulate the abdominal muscles.  Richard is crazy over this device for a moment.  He seem curious about it!  Recently he had purchased so many internet items -- products that he purchased while shopping online. He even searched for coupons so that he can buy things at a much lower price.  He saved a lot of money actually.  


Back to the Flex Belt, Richard was looking for a coupon code for the Flex Belt.  There are several flex belt discount with sites that offered a promo that would save about $35 on the device.  Based on Richard's recent online shopping experience, it is vital to have flex belt coupon.  It really makes a difference with or without coupons.  If you want to save money, you must remember to use coupons!


As for me, I am taking medications and I doubt that this device would help me.  Most importantly, I do not like any restrain to my waist.  My current finances would not allow me to buy unnecessary products.  I am looking for a job now.  We are shelving such matter to the shelf for the time being.

Dream Walker

I can do amazing things.  I can catch the bird, but my caregiver would think that it is a dirty thing to do that.  I love holding the bird in my hand, I would feel the warmness of the bird in my hand.  Look at the picture, it was another bird I caught on 5 March 2012.  It was such an interesting thing to do and there was lots of excitement in doing so.  However, my caregiver would not even dare to touch the bird.... 

I am taking Olanzapaine and Venlafaxine pills every night, given by a doctor at Institute of Mental Health, a psychiatrist. Every appointment I had with him was very short, just a meeting face to face and each time, he asked,"How are you feeling?" And my response was very short and prompt, "Okay" or "Neutral", or basically good. Nothing bad had happened to me and I was able to meet him there, right? (and there goes the bills going to be paid later for just a meeting of 'face to face'.) 

 Why do I need to go through all these trouble of meeting a psychiatrist? Well, I was hospitalized last year, and my 'caregiver' send me there. What happens? 

 Dreams have been 'haunting' me. I dreamed of many things and I remembered them the next day. These dreams have effect on my consciousness. Perhaps after a period of time, everything accumulated become the 'effect day' where the limit is hit. 

 The reason why I am sharing my experience is to share with anyone who might have similar experience, and they might have a better way of coping with their life. For my case, I don't think that the psychiatrist is of great help at all. Throughout my appointment with him, ever since my discharge from the hospital, I had never known or was told of my condition -- why I must eat medicine, what's wrong with me? Why must I took those pills? How the doctor know what went wrong in me? Was my 'caregiver' giving the right information? It is a three party affairs -- what the doctor comprehend from my 'caregiver', what the doctor think of me, and what I can tell the doctor? The last one was definitely left out. 

 So what could be a better way would perhaps be a jungian psychotherapy or jungian analysis by some professionals. One example of which would be Douglas Tompkins from New York. This type of analytical psychotherapy or jungian psychoanalysis would perhaps be a better way of 'spending money'.  Right now, I am 'seeing' the doctor, and taking medication (as if I am sick).  However, my mind cannot comprehend why I must take medication.  My inner self is not at ease.  Because of the medication, the side effect is gaining weight.  I have put on so much weight -- amazingly fast! I have never tried jungian psychoanalysis, but I thought that by using this method, healing is not only for the outer self, but the inner self, the deeper spiritual level of inner self as well.  This would be a better choice.

These are the medications I am taking.  I take the medications so that my caregiver can feel better -- follow the instructions of the doctor.  Everything else still depends on myself.  

Double Happiness

Do you believe in miracle? I would not believe there is such a thing called miracle in the past. I do not know what is the meaning of life. I do not know why people must come to this earth, grow up and then get sick and die. I have so many questions about life.

My life was not a happy journey all the time. In fact, I do not know what is real happiness. There are simply too much burdens or responsibilities in life; and things often do not work the way we wanted them to be. Everyday, life is monotonous, dull and 'the same day by day'.

However, ever since I had 'seen' the truth -- encountered God, as well as experienced the power of resurrection of Jesus Christ, who had saved me, everyday is a new day to be experienced -- beautiful and refreshing -- birds chirping, birds flying beautifully in the sky and much more.

That is one happiness -- my soul was saved, otherwise I would have perished. I was 'born again' during that time, brand new and refreshing experience -- inspired and happy. After this miracle, came another miracle of life...

Not knowingly, there was another little life growing inside me. It was such a torment for the nine months, and ultimately the labour or birth, and then confinement period. Pains, pains and really pains and suffering... However, today, I am enjoying double happiness...

The first happiness will be for life -- a lifetime of truth and experience that would not be forgotten: My life was saved by Jesus. Next happiness is none other than my little Isaac. Life is such a miracle in itself. From conception to birth, my body changed so much. My baby grew miraculously inside me, without me knowing how it grew, except for the kicks and punching and the size of my tummy growing.


A photograph of Isaac and me, taken one day after my birthday using handphone model Sony Ericsson Walkman W595

Now, Isaac is four months old and he is so fun to 'play' with now. He has added so much joy to the family. It is just not so easy to bring a child to this world. I do not want to forget every part of this new experience that I have. In the past, there are no digital cameras, and we could not afford to capture so many photographs. But now, I do not want to miss out any developmental stages of my new child. Nothing beats savouring all my baby's precious moments over and over again.

My camera(Exilim) was spoilt last month. I have to quickly shop for a camera phone because that is a cheaper alternative. Richard and I went shopping for handphone. He has always like phones like Blackberry that can be put in any blackberry case. He tried holding one of the blackberry in his hands but I do not like it. I love the iphone because it has beautiful iphone dock, but I do not need such an expensive phone now that I am not working. It is out of my budget. In the end, I bought a cheap phone. Richard bought the phone for me as my birthday present. He asked if I needed a Bluetooth Headset also, but I do not need it either. I am just satisfied to have a simple handphone to capture my little Isaac's smile and laughter everyday.

The above photograph is taken using my latest handphone, Sony Ericsson W595. I cannot imagine living one day of my life without a camera. It is just so nice to see all his special facial expression and sound that he(Isaac) made. This is in fact more than double happiness, probably triple happiness!